Leaving has taught me to trust no one. I already didn't but y'all gave me even more reason to send myself off.
whatever... crazy bitches in this city can hop off my dick and let me be crazy
FAME feels as though it is valid to be crazy and let myself get into bullshit even if I know I shouldn't. I am 19... like cmon. Is that not the time to be absolutely fucking stupid? to roll in the mud and let that shit get in my eyes ear nose and mouth. to hell with it ill let myself get an airborne disease while im at it.
Im a simple girl. I do what I want, and nothing else. It doesn't matter if something is good or bad for me, If I want to do it I will. I could care less.
When it comes to manipulative men.
I do not care if one man manipulates me, because that means I am his person to manipulate. But only 1 man at any given time. I can only be the victim to one loser at a time.
I manipulate plenty of the men in my life.. Some of them have been around for 5+ years. They love me. I care about them, but not like how they care about me. And that's okay. They don't know they're being manipulated, they blindly follow and adore.
At least when my limit of 1 man manipulates me, I know he's doing it. Its okay. If I lived by the feminism/ pro cis female mantra of "FUCK MEN WHO MANIPULATE THEY ARE PIECES OF SHIT" I would be a fucking hypocrite.
If male manipulators get cancelled then we should cancel most sexy famous women.
HELLO Kim K was not KIM K until she met Kanye. She was just another reality star- She manipulated the FUCK out of the shit that man brought her around and now she has the fattest ass, the coolest clothes, and everyone on the planet thinking about her and her life.
I view the people I am involved with as people not men. So it's just a person in my life manipulating me. It really doesn't bother me. Maybe that makes me a stupid bitch but I kinda like it.
AS sick and twisted as it is, I feel hot, sexy, empowered by the interactions I have with the men I manipulate. So I bet the 1 person that manipulates me feels the same. If me playing along with his bullshit makes me hot so be it. It's not that deep.
I was born in 2003... Ive only got 19 years down, why the fuck would I worry about things like this now
The possession of it is kinda hot tbh. I like the power that they can hold over me by having the type of manipulative relationship we do. Cause I know that no matter how much power they feel they have, I have more.
More reason why I don't suck dick. If I won't touch your dick that means my pussy is the only that can get you to cum.
If there was a list of the powers I hold over my partners vs the ones they over me.... we already know whose list would be longer.
my being a product of misogyny is definitely to blame for this mindset. At least Im self aware.
If anyone of you fucks try to tell me anything or refute this- I bite. respectfully, keep it to yourself.
Ill probably heal and get over this one day, but at the moment, and for the time being, this is how I feel. And if you can't own the shit you feel when you feel it what is the point of being able to change your mind and grow.
FAME💋
